感恩

在沐胶一个星期了， 从我踏入这块土地的那一刻，
 上帝就一路带领，供给我一切所需要的。感谢神。

公司的司机会从机场接我， 我不认识他，
我害怕一个人跟他回公司， 神就让我的朋友在我下飞机的前五分钟抵达机场，
让我们可以一起跟着司机回公司。

公司安排的住宿， 也因为我是女生，有特别的优待，
有冷气， 房间也比较新。 =D

我的supervisor and co-supervisor 人都还不错，不会欺负我们。 就连在从中国来的contractor's workers 都很愿意教导我们。

这里的人都很好，看到你在路边等公司的交通都会主动问你要不要跟他们的车。
就连昨天要去市区， 都有一个好心的女生载我们。

也感谢神让忠营能帮我安排去教会的交通和住宿。 让我能在圣诞节回到上帝的面前。 也认识了一些新朋友。

还有许许多多数不完的恩典。觉得很感恩。
希望在这里的生活能一天比一天好。 =)

睡不着

明天终于要去training了，

很紧张，

要去一个没去过的地方，

面对不一样的环境，

不知道会发生什么事，

睡不着啊!

唉~~~~

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不想长大

我真的不想长大，

要烦的东西太多，

要顾虑的东西太多，

根本不能像小时候那样，

无忧无虑的过日子。

社会的现实，

就快要打倒我的坚持，

我的想法。

我真的不想改变我的想法，

只想要快快乐乐的做自己。

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FML

Super soi, first left my pendrive in the lab n I lost it so all the results n graphs from matlab gone. Need to redo, n qi Hong do tat part. So I do the manual calculations part. Need to key all the equation into report. Key bout 5 pages dy n almost done, tat document suddenly crashed. Can't open anymore. Wth, dunno how to repair so I just redo. What kind of life do I have ? I actually put the document in dropbox to back up but this still happened.

Then, tan told me the java assignment 2 the part I do is a mess. @@ I really dun have energy to think about anything. I wish I just disappear or just faint n never wake up.

Why things just can't be the way it shud be when u try so hard for it ?

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那些年

那晚，
终于看了这部我想看了好久的电影。
想看的原因很多。
莫过于想要从这部电影里回忆起什么。

里面，女主角说了几句话，
竟然是我说过一模一样的话。
不知道 tan 还记不记得，
是我和他在一起之前说的。

那些年错过的大雨，
那些年错过的爱情，

就好好收藏在心里，
丢掉了曾有的幼稚，
迈向生命中另一个阶段前进。

Senior Ball 2011

Finally,

the last senior ball in my uni life,

I'm going to graduate next year (hopefully =p), 

some of them graduating this year, 

left about 1 month to go.

The programs aren't that great, 

the music aren't that nice.

But, it was a great night,

with my bf, my best friends.

 He likes to act cool as always XD

 Finally got one photo we stand together, thx Mel =)

  

So far, the oni 1 i cn find tat with winnie one >_<

Most of us know each other for around 4 year plus dy.

Glad to have u all in my uni life.

In about few months time, 

all of us will leave for our dreams, our futures.

Good luck to u all n keep in touch always. I will miss you all =)

P/s: Curi photos from here n thr in facebook. Thx all the photographers =D Too bad dun hv the photos for 2nd,3rd n 4th round after tat T_T

自作自受

笨蛋的我，
又是最后时刻才甘愿做功课和温习。
今天有一个考试， 还有要交些 fyp 的东西给老师看。
昨晚才开始努力，直到今早六点多。
睡了大概三个小时就起来预备去学校了。
结果，起来的时候就开始拉肚子。以为是太紧张所以不在意。
可是还是觉得不舒服，考试前几分钟就跑去厕所吐了。@@
考着的时候又去拉肚子。超可怜的。
应该不会考太差吧。
可是，难得觉得今天我很白。哈哈。
不过是苍白。T_T

没胃口吃东西，
一整个下午都不舒服。
还好现在没事了，可以开开心心了。=）

*有他照顾着，蛮幸福的 (@ ^ ^ @)

做个聪明的女人

【聪明女性守则】

 1. 不要当三瓶女人：年轻時是花瓶，中年時是醋瓶，老年時是药瓶。 


 2. 不要做三转女人：围着锅台转，围着老公转，围着孩子转。


 3. 做三独立女人：思想独立、能力独立、经济独立！


 4. 三养女人：修养，涵养、保养！


 5. 三丽女人：美丽、能力、魅力。


 6. 三忘女人：忘记年龄、忘记伤痛、忘记恩怨。

女人，加油！=）

Rainbow

" There is always a Rainbow after the rain" 

I love this quote.

Rainbow is the promise of God.

When i feel down or upset, 

I tell myself, 

Everything will be alright,

Because when all the bad things go away,

Good things will come after that. 

Hey you, smiles.

No matter what happen  =)

睡眠

睡觉好重要哦。

昨晚睡不好，

今天整天没精神。

上课时，尽量把眼睛睁大了，

还是没把课听进去。

现在在图书馆混了几个小时，

也只学了一点点。

好想回家睡觉了。

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赶功课

好想念以前放假的时候，
有两三个月，
每天在家睡觉，吃饭，看戏，
有空的时候就和家人或朋友出去玩。
哪像现在，想要好好看个偶像剧都没时间，
其实，时间是有的，
只是不知道用在哪里了，
等到要交功课的时候就发现时间不够用了。

读到final year 的时候，真的很想放弃，final year project 好难，
好多东西要自己去想，去找。
感觉前三年读的东西都没进脑，
要不然干嘛什么都不会的。

我要放假！！！

安全感

我发现我是一个很没有安全感的人。
没钱的时候，我怕。
没时间的时候，我怕。
没人陪的时候，我怕。
也许我就是一个不能承担太多压力的人。
对于眼前的所有，未来的可能，统统没有安全感。

*最近有很多让我很烦的事，就让我emo一下吧。不想憋在心里，因为不想眼泪再次掉下来。

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Build House

Wednesday went for a build in Taman Desa Wira for a family. We represented Swinburne Human for Humanity Student Chapter. Quite a fun experience.

First time,
- mixed cement
- tied the re-bar with steel wires
- moved the stones
-played with wheel barrow
-wore the rubber boots ! haha

Here are some photos,
only 3 photos coz most of the pics with tan / emily / daniel.

 Emily n I (cute leh the boots XD)

 Melanie Y(^^)Y

I looked very slim here hahaha =p

But, my whole body very pain now especially my back n my waist. I think I really not fit or really old dy lahh.. Seriously need massage o.. Wish I have a massage chair n can relax n enjoy now. Next time earn $$ liao must buy ! =p

Swinburne Carnival 2011

I'm working for Habitat for Humanity stall this year. Wake up quite early, after take bath then go uni to help out dy. Unfortunately, today not much ppl came to the carnival maybe due to lack of publicity. But anyway, thanks God we did raised some fund for those in need n thanks for those who donated some clothes n stuff. I din walked around this year but did played a game with Mel n we nearly win.

The game is like this:
 There is a list of the Japanese words n its pronunciation .
There are cards with each Japanese word on the table.
A person will read out a sentence.
We have to listen to the first word and try to find out the card with that word.
After 3 seconds, the 2 of them who know Japanese will fight with us for the cards.
Who got the most cards wins.

So, it's quite hard to listen the word, find out the word from the list n find them on the table again.
But we gt 18 n they gt 24, so i think we quite pro dy hahahaha n we did have fun =D

I felt a bit sick now. Keep sneezing.. T_T Maybe lack of sleep n today too tired dy @@
But need to finish my Java assignment, it is due on Tues. Fighting ~ Fighting ~ =)

Angry or Sad?

Angry or sad? or maybe both?
When you care and you try your best to do it,
then you just realize the person you work with or team with doesn't even care,
how do you feel?
I can't say what i did was so great or what,
but i just can't stand that you just cincai cincai like that.
At least think about it a bit?
I'm just upset.
I'm worried about you but i'm not going to step in since you dun even care at the start.

不要为明天忧虑

神啊，

我相信你已为我预备了我的未来，

对不起，我这个小信的人，却还是会对未来充满恐惧。

我害怕，

我担心，

我忧虑。

阿爸父神，

求你安慰我，

让我知道你对我的旨意是什么，

让我有勇气面对未来，

让我知道，

“所以，不要为明天忧虑，因为明天自有明天的忧虑；一天的难处一天当就够了。”

――马太福音6：34

Do you care?

Someone just wrote this in Facebook,

"No matter how busy a person day might be, if they really care, they will always find time for  you."

I agree with the person who wrote this, if you care, you will definitely find some times for him/her. Just a short moment, just a short conversation will change everything. =)

Happy Birthday, Mummy

Mummy, today is your birthday. "Happy Birthday" 

Wish you happy always and I love you.

I dun dare to say in the phone just now. 

Hope you really enjoy your day.

I will try my best to be the daughter you can proud of.

God bless you. =)

Love Quotes

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

6. Don't force an attraction. – yeah, its a no-no!

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck ..no.. you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don't settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. —check no.4

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship–take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; HE DOESNT WANT YOU! —-ouch!!

18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first!

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them…flee.

29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within. —oh yezzz!

30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself — double-standard.

31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.

32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!

34. Don't compete with other woman, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, let him go.

36. Actions speak louder than words.

37. Never let a man define who you are. — but of course!!

38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.

39. Never borrow someone else's man.

40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.

42. To use painful hard-won wisdom — 'get it right' the next time.

43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the #1person in your life.

44. Love is a verb … its an ACTION word!

45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available,someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving- loving. don t wish a man will change for you

46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

47. All men are NOT dogs. — but most of them are daw!

48. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two way street.

49. If you don't love yourself…you can't love anyone else. — the number one rule!

50. You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.

51. You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about
baggage…deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals…look for someone complementary… not supplementary.

53. Dating is fun…even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it.

55. Never become your man's "therapist".

56. When actions and words conflict, believe the actions. Respond to the actions. check #36

57. A real healthy relationship requires two people. One person can end it – but it takes two to make it work.

58. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type"…when a man loves you there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn't do for you.

59. Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are,
and you're always readily available to him he takes it for granted.

60. Give him his space…let him go out with his boys, don't pressure him to spend time with you, You cant force a man to hang out with you.

61. If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with him you shouldn't.

62. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

63. Never move into his mother's house. —oh, oh!

64. Provide financially for yourself and don't depend on anyone. - naman!

65. Never co-sign for a man.

66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is so innocent.

67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.

68. Never let a man mess up your credit.

69. When it's time to let go; let go.

70. Good men should be treated like good men.

71. Don't play games.

72. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

73. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

74. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs, personal and
career goals, and socioeconomic status, are important.

75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts

No Title

My pink pink laptop just get fixed this afternoon.
Luckily only one day don't have laptop to use if not i will get in some much trouble..(my homeworks all haven do =p)
Actually is my fault lah. I dropped my laptop accidentally last last night then it seem okay n i just continue to use lor..(what kind of person am i to drop my laptop while using it ???) then off it before sleep. When i on it back in the morning, it cant detect the graphic card n after do the testing -- Hard disk failed !
Straight Back up stuff then tan help me call Dell to ask technician come lor.. =) Thanks tan, ma fan u again. I'm a comp noob. haha

Some unhappy stuff happened these few days.. hope everything will be alright.
Always believe that, " There is always a Rainbow after the rain "

Actually just now i'm a bit emo but i manage to just let all the bad feelings go away after awhile. HJ, not bad ya. Keep it up =p

True

Saw this from Facebook,

Sometimes,

it just so true..

感谢..

原来，

还是有人很好心的，

会为了帮助别人，

自己麻烦一点。

谢谢你，Fred。

谢谢今晚煮晚餐给我吃的你。=）

谢谢时常在我的身边的朋友们。 (You know who you are ^^)

谢谢父母没有强求我的成绩一定要很好。

谢谢姐姐们和哥哥偶尔都会关心我。

谢谢神你为我预备的一切。

之前最担心找不到实习的地方，你也为我预备了。

我根本没想到要apply的，偏偏tan就帮我拿form，帮我sign up.

最最怕的interview也那么轻轻松松就过了。

现在，就希望一切可以顺顺利利的继续下去。

我会加油的！谢谢你们！=D

Tonight is just not my night

Haiz,
All I can said are "haiz" & "arrr" ..
First, I can't finish my solidworks. I'm already noob in solidworks. Then, it crashed suddenly and I haven't save the file so bye bye. Need redo. Then, redo dy the calculation wrong, some bar just too long n can't fit in. Redo. Then, suddenly the wheel not aligned. Redo again. Then so happy coz finally align dy so continue to assemble other parts. But, unluckily the wheels are not aligned again. I don't what's wrong. I give up dy. Morning continue again. T_T


Other than that, my phone showed got new update, kepo kepo go do lor. I just follow instruction only. But, it went wrong. It reset my phone. Everything's gone.Especially my games. Got back up so can get back all the contacts n apps but all reset dy. All need sign in again the game level all reset too. I played one of the game till level 83 dy, left 7 levels then finish the game dy. Now level 1 again. I want to cry dy. Tan do it the same way but his phone successfully updated without changing anything. All his apps n games still there. So, now redo it again n finally updated.

I drank coffee just now coz I'm hungry n thought can be more energetic to do my work but it did not work well on me tonight. My stomach feel not well n I'm headache now.

I'm not sure I can fall asleep or not but I definitely don't wanna continue my work. Just lie down n look at the wall. Hopefully can fall asleep soon. @@

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加油！加油！

Java !

Fyp !

Machine Dynamics 2 Test 1 !

I will have a long week this week !

Jia you ~ Jia you ~

*I'm starting to worry about my studies liao T_T

hey,

Sometimes, I just need this from you.

水瓶座

是我facebook的朋友会看到我share一些关于水瓶座的post.

也许是无聊，

也许是想多了解自己吧。

【一封写给水瓶们的信】
亲爱的水瓶，不要抓住回忆不放，断了线的风筝，只能让它飞，放过它，更是放过自己；
亲爱的水瓶，你必须找到除了爱情之外，能够使你用双脚坚强站在大地上的东西；
亲爱的水瓶，你要自信甚至是自恋一点，时刻提醒自己，值得拥有最好的一切。❤

水瓶最擅长的是难为自己。

不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。

总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。

对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收、精心尽力，绝对不会有半个不字。

他们不知道，到最后受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何去表现。❤

水瓶座伤心时会找自己最要好的朋友倾诉，

水瓶座本身就是一个对家人比较冷淡的人，

所以在伤心的时候是决不会找家人，

但是和朋友之间平常都是非常的不错，

也喜欢帮朋友的忙，

在自己难过的时候一定会想到自己最要好的朋友。❤

【和水瓶座女生恋爱十件需知】
1.瓶子是敏感的

2.瓶子太清楚自己不要什么

3.瓶子不相信天长地久

4.瓶子不会轻易表白自己内心
5.别逼迫瓶子做她不愿意做的事情
6.瓶子本身就没有安全感
7.瓶子最不能舍弃的是自由
8.瓶子不会跟你吵架
9.水瓶座把爱和喜欢分得太清楚
10.瓶子不会只有一面。❤

有些蛮有道理的。=p

Live Your Life

Every moment,
Every person,
That happens/appears in your life,
They means something,
And they makes your life colorful.

 Accept it and appreciate it.
I will learn to live my life now. =)

I'm Serious !!!

This time, seriously I want to keep fit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dun even want to look at myself in all those photos..
Look super duper fat!!!
Dislike !!!!

I wont change any new fb profile pic until i finally slim down..
Ppl, please just look at the domo for this period.
My face will be back after i slim down..
So, just be patient ya. (Anyway,I dun think any1 will wait for it XD )
I cant accept myself anymore. It's time to make changes !!

累了。

为什么当一个人想要变得更好的时候，就会变得更加不快乐？

这就是成功的人所要经过的吗？

我很不开心。

我觉得自己很失败。

要求变高了，是好事。

达不到的时候，是坏事。

我也恨自己爱跟人比，

别人比我好，

我替他们开心，

可是我自己过后会更伤心。

累了，

读书为了什么？

考了70分又是什么？

CGPA 2.92 又是什么？

拿了degree又是什么？

成绩不如人，

到头来还不是要继续竞争下去。

我想我不是读书的料，

只拿一科也只考到这样的成绩。

读完书，

找个人，

嫁了，

算了。

但，

又放不下所谓的梦想啊~理想啊~

怎么办？

人，

应该要知足呢？

还是不断要求自己呢？

哪一个才能变得开心一点？

自己一个人

凌晨将近一点钟，
自己一个人，
听着收音机，
好听的歌，
感觉还不错。
把所有烦恼都忘记了。
简单的一件事，
也可以觉得很幸福。=)

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I need motivation !

I spent around 3 hours to do my internship thingy n yet haven fin. I dunno what im doing. I finished update my cv and cover letter then spent lots of time playing facebook games @@

Wasting time is still okay, but now i feel moody. I dun feel better after play those games. I dun have motivation to do my literature review for my fyp. I dun wanna do anything n i will just throw my temper if anyone mess with me now.

I hate this feeling !! Go away pls !

Hang out with friends ^^

Wow, first week of this sem just passed. This week dun hv tutorials so we were all quite free and just hang around hehe =)

I'm not as stress as tat day coz i found my fyp teammate n also decide what topics to do dy hehe
Nic n I will be doing "Intelligent Carriage Design". Hope we will do it well =)

Tues had lunch with my ex-classmate from primary sch. He came to Swinburne to continue his studies. =)
Then, Wed went for movies, " The Smurfs". Quite nice o The characters very cute n quite funny too..Laugh through the whole movie =p

Thur went Tze Swee house for singing but end up become drinking @@ coz the files not compatible and need times to convert it so we sang few songs only.. =p everyone was quite high n very funny o hahahaha

Fri went for swimming ~ I'm so lousy lor.. Swim very very slow even though i tried so hard to swim faster. Tan said i din use enough strength but I tried to kick harder dy.. Mel said my kicking a bit wrong but tan said my motions was okay. Hmmm, how should I improve ??

Tonight going for mooncake festival celebration o ~ Go Friendship Park play lanterns ~ =D Looking forward for it ~ Going to go shopping with Mel later ~~ =p

Love to have fun with friends ~ ^^

Hi there

Hi, I'm back to Kuching again..
My holidays was so busy, dun even have time to take a good rest.
Went to Bintulu n Sibu. busy and tired but quite fun =D
Spent some times with my parents and relatives was good too..
Happy Belated Birthday to MELANIE LEE!
Too bad this year cant celebrate for you but I'm sure u had a good one with ur bf so no prob liao lahh hahaha

Today was first day for this semester which means I'm officially get in my last year of uni life.
I was nervous, worried n scared.
I still am.
I feel like the same as I'm just got in the uni four years back. I was lost. I can't c the direction in front of me. I told myself : " Everything will be okay."
Does everything really will be okay?

I dun hv a teammate for my final year project yet.
I dun hv a topic yet.
and yet, I'm waiting for the announcement from my lecturer.
But,
they got a team,
they got a topic,
and they got an adviser already.
That's the differences between good student and an average one which is me. @@
They are initiative.
Where am I when they have done all of that?
Sleeping?
Shopping?
Watching drama?
Chatting?
Chilling?

I know I should think positively and I will try hard to do that.
Good luck to me then.
Again,
I use these verses to encourage myself.

[Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.] Phil 4:6-7

[应当一无挂虑，只要凡事藉着祷告、祈求、和感谢，将你们所要的告诉神。神所赐出人意外的平安，必在基督耶稣里，保守你们的心怀意念。]腓力比书4:6-7

Unlucky Jin

That day, i just tell u all im happy that i just got my hello kitty casing n i use it for 1 or 2 days only my phone broke down. T_T i terdrop it when i charge it. so the USB port cant response anymore.. means my phone is ok one but i cnt charge the battery so i cnt use it !!!!! sent for warranty dy..hope cn fast fast get back lor hehe

Not only that, my face now so ugly. i got a pimple near my mouth thr. at first jut a big one ord look ugly. Then it bleed, so i remove the yellow yellow thg n blood. I tot it will be ok soon.. then the next day it dried up and a layer of blood again. So i tot i just clean it up again.. Oh ya, n i stupid stupid go put some toothpaste on it for awhile coz like heard before toothpaste can help cure pimple. @@ Who knows, it become worst !!!! look like infected liao the wound become bigger n got yellow yellow thg again..

Thanks tan help me clean it n help me put coconut oil n plaster.. Im so scare it will leave scar later so obvious so ugly ehh.. Hope it will cure soon. *sigh

A New Day

Hey all, today I'm feeling better !! I'm not feeling sick, I'm not feeling down, I feel energetic n I actually feel a bit happy ~~ ^^

I just woke up not long ago, yesterday was a bad day coz I'm feeling sick, a bit flu, a bit dizzy. But I'm ok now =D plus I decided to put down whatever on my mind lately now. So I think I can really concentrate on my assignment today n have fun after that. Woohoo ~~

I just got my new hello kitty casing too. Not bad not bad. My phone looks better now.

Off to do assignment ya. Bye ~~~~ HJ,jia you ~~

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浪漫的恋爱？

看了“会长是女仆大人”，（我知道我很outdated,这么慢才看 XD）

很sweet o... 现实应该找不到吧！

想想就好了，也别要求太多。=p

女生心里都有自己梦寐以求的浪漫爱情故事吧。

希望有一天它真的会实现 =)

阶级的存在

最近看了韩版花样男子和秘密花园，

社会阶级真的存在，不由得我们不去重视。

所谓：“人生如戏，戏如人生。”

也许戏里夸张了一些，小小细节被放大了一些（尤其是美好的），但也会发生在现实中。

有钱人和没钱人，这两种就带来了两种社会阶级，两个不同的世界。

就我来说，如果能努力，让自己去到另一个世界，那还不错。

如果没那个能力，就不要妄想，乖乖呆在自己属于的那个世界，因为里面也会有幸福的。=）

人生目标

有时候在想， 我的人生目标是什么？

觉得自己应该上大学，现在还有一年即将毕业了，然后呢？

觉得自己应该恋爱，现在有个稳定的男友， 然后呢？

觉得自己应该长大了，可是我又做了什么呢？

前途茫茫，接下来是什么呢？

没有答案，没有预测，只有走一步，算一步。

22 岁的我，并不是几年前我想像中的那个自己。

没有那么的美好，没有那么的幸福，没有那么的单纯，也没有那么的快乐。

但是，生活还是要继续勇敢地走下去。

求神带领，也求神怜悯，因为我好像也不是自己想像中的那么爱你。对不起。我会学习回到你的身边的。

[也许你航行了一生也没有到达彼岸，

也许你攀登了一世也没能登上顶峰。

但是能触礁的不是勇士，

敢失败的未必不是英雄，

奋斗了就问心无愧，

奋斗了就是成功的人生。 ] (quote from internet =) )

Moody day

Today, just a random day, but is a moody day as well.

Tan is still sick and absent for class. I'm not going as well. Not becoz he is not thr. Is becoz two of us in a group n the tutorial class is discussion between your group so no point for me to go to class lor.

Doing nothing since I'm woke up except washed some dishes, cooked vege for lunch, facebook-ing, listening to music, play some games.. tat's all.. not a productive day. my assignment not even 50% done n yet I'm wasting time here.. T_T what a "nice" day ~

Later, i may bake cheese cake with Mel. She wanna bake one for her bf for his birthday n i just join her for fun haha hope everythg will be better later...

[ Like to 胡思乱想 lately, what a bad habit i had all the time ]

[ Like to think negatively, that's even worse]

[ Like to escape from problems, another one ==|||]

14 days of diet

Tat day, tan n i went shopping for groceries and we decided to start our diet for 14 days based on the Nestle diet program.. T_T

Our daily meal will be :

Breakfast - Whole grain cereal with milk (sometime with fruits or orange juice or boiled eggs)

Lunch - Normal Meal (Luckily, i want rice, meat n bla bla bla XD)

Dinner - Whole grain cereal with milk ( Again !!! @@)

Besides, we must have regular exercises (about 3 days or more per week)

Today is day 2 and everything is still fine, we ate as it stated and we went for squash n carried some light weights =D

12 days more, Jia you.. n hope that after these 2 weeks n u all can realize i become slimmer ~ haha ^^

自卑感

昨天，和朋友聊到自卑感，有一些感触。

我是家里最小的，从小，我都是躲在父母、哥哥姐姐们的后面，不需要担心任何事，不需要应付任何交际。只要静静的跟在背后，笑笑的打招呼就可以了。

稍微长大了，我的前男友和现任男友都是能言善辩的，对外的沟通也不需要我去烦恼，还是一样，笑笑的打招呼就好了。

有时候，当然也会感觉到自卑，觉得自己
●不够漂亮
●不够聪明
●不够勇敢
●身材不够好
●不够有钱
●不够强壮
●没有任何专长
●不够高

但是，还是要感谢上帝，祂赐给我身边的人都能保护我，也让我虽然不出色，却不是最糟糕的那个。我，就是最平凡的那个。而我，蛮喜欢这样的自己。^^

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Winter Sem

After all the waiting, worrying n hoping, I end up here, in Kch, taking winter semester. Means I haven't get my industrial placement yet n hope to finish it end of this year.. Pls pray for me, ppl.. Thanks =)

But, this winter sem is not going to be easy. 1 subject in 6 weeks, sounds simple but with 3 assignments n a final exam paper. The assignments are hard. First week, we got our assignment 1 dy n need to pass up next week T_T

Plus, I start to go gym dy.. Running plus lifting some light weight n hope to get nice body figure after this winter sem.. hahaha.. jia you jia you.. Tan is my personal trainer n he is so STRICT ! force me go gym everyday n cant rest when tired n keep complaint about my stamina n bla bla bla >_<

Swimming become our weekly activity too. Tan, Mel, Calvin, Rosemary n I, sometimes with tze swee or meow are having fun while swimming ~ Diving for the first time in my life.. from the lowest stand but im still so scared.. i was shaking while up there but still jumped down while prayed in the heart: "God,pls bless me ~" hahaha but that was fun ~ ^^

Anyway, take k u all..especially my friends n family in Miri, miss you all n have fun there.. =)

新的感觉

最近，换了新的房间，搬进了之前是我姐姐们的房间。环境不错，家具也是按着我喜欢的方式排列。简简单单的，干干净净的，我很喜欢。

但是，就是少了一些归属感。毕竟这里原本不属于我，在原来的房间也呆了六、七年了。希望，在接下来的日子可以慢慢习惯这里的一切。人总是要往前看，往前走的吧！^^

人生也是一样，加油咯…

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疑惑

到底选对了吗?
应该坚持吗?
后悔了吗?
能回头吗?

虽然知道不可能，
我好想一切重新来过。
让我做任何事都能无怨无悔。

但，
不管发生了什么事，
经历了多少伤心的事，
都过去了。

希望，
以后的我会知道该做什么决定，
不要后悔了。

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要爱自己

我决定了...要多爱自己，多做些对自己有益处的事。照顾自己的身体，早睡早起，把自己弄美美的，多学习充实自己。

我相信，只要我多爱自己一些，别人也会多爱我一些。

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Field trip

My 1st field trip in my uni life.. n the subject that organize this trip is engineering management 2.. robotic noob one dun have field trip one.. I should choose a more interesting course Haha

We went to Sarawak Concrete Industrial Berhad.. Erm, this trip actually better for civil student but they actually using automated system n some heavy machine so I also get the chance to c the use of automated system in real life..

N the kolian part is 30 ppl sign up for it n only 13 ppl show up.. maybe civil student got too many field trip dy so this one is nothing for them.. but it is special for me hehe

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My new dream..

After im graduate from uni,after I save enough money, I want to try to go traveling by myself.. I think of one location dy.. Taiwan! Hope my dream comes true.. People, please wish me luck. =)

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Depressing..

I know life isn't easy.. but why being so hard on me ? My life so mess up now.. I sleep in the morning n wake up in the afternoon.. Night time is my working time. The only place I go is uni. Most of the time just stay at home do works.. feel so stress.. sometime tears just dropping down without any reason.

Like this still ok, just hope can finish everything on time. But today my hotmail account has been blocked due to sending too many junk emails. Damn you virus! Now hotmail is very important for me to communicate with my group members and you treat me like this. Although can fix it but just feel very sien about it.

I think I will screw up my studies if continue like this, final exam is less than 2 weeks ahead n I haven't even start preparing for it. Thanks God. I'm not sick even thought my life now super unhealthy. Thanks for lead me all the time and always prepare someone for me when I need one.. my bf, my friends, my family. Again, jia you HJ..

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原来

我想我偶像剧看多了，想太多了。

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Dead Fish X_X

I'm going to be a dead fish soon.. real soon.. I slept at 4 / 5am in the morning for around one week dy for my assignments n yet i haven't finish them because we keep made mistake n have to redo n redo..

Now, i have to finish some assignments these few days so my life is going to be real miserable again.. *Sigh..

Sunday - Pass EM2 financial report to my teammate

Monday - Pass up MD Assignment 2 (35% arrrrrrr!!!)

Tuesday - Show lecturer the inverse kinematic n Robotworks (I have done both but both got probs! Really wanna scold bad words dy... T_T)

Thursday - Pass up Control lab report n TEST !!

The following week got presentation, factory visit, assignment then presentation, report (go round n round) N finally FINAL EXAM !! Sien lorrrrrrrrrr my family go traveling n i WANT to go also lahhhh.... My dad say i can go if i finish my revision earlier.. Do you think i can make it ??? with all these stressful stuff around me?? I hope i can coz i want to spend time with my family T_T

God, pls give me a healthy body n clear mind n extra wisdom for me to finish my works. Thanks..

Emo-ing

I have do the same calculations for more than five times dy n yet I still need to redo now.. Just feel very frustrated.. We should really start everything earlier.. I wanna follow my family go Kk for family trip but the day after I back to Kuching will have my 3rd final exam paper.. so I have to make sure I finish my revision then I just can go.. Jia You Jin.. Good luck..

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Easter !

Today service very early, at 7am n it was raining heavily when we reached thr.. Tan said maybe God punished us because we were late.. late for around 15 minutes.. =p I wore a new shirt for this Easter but I think I should not match with mini skirt because I looked like go to shopping or whatever than go to church @@

My face when just wake up @@

Today sermon title: 1 Corinthians 15:6, 55 NIV

"Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?"

We should not fear of death because Jesus had risen n there is eternal life after death..

I got an Easter egg after the church service.. mine very cute o with a hello kitty sticker on top.. Mel got a diff pic of hello kitty one. I think they were made by Sunday school students.. love it ^^

cute leh??

Act cute with the cute egg XD

P/s : forgot to take pics with Mel n her Easter egg XD

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Good Friday

A day for remembrance of Jesus... We went to church for the gathering. The way they do quite special,not the boring sermon type.. n I learn a lot today.. especially we need to ask forgiveness for talk too much nonsenses n say something that hurt ppl.. maybe sometimes we just don't realise but we did hurt ppl.. I have to jia you on this part.. Jesus, thanks for sacrificed for us so that today we can come to God through you..

I think me n Mel will be twins soon coz our phone will have same decorations n we just bought a same dress with different colors XD I love shopping.. So, jia you study n earn $$$ for shopping !! :P

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Happy Day with Mel ^^

So so long din go "pakto" with mel dy.. today finally got the chance hehe.. Thanks to the Starbucks voucher.. Thanks mel =D Had a relax day.. Study in Starbucks with green tea cream..



Then we went shopping !! haha time pass so fast n we ponteng class.. Sorry teacher, we are juz too excited.. XD



Oh ya, bought a jelly lens tat qi hong showed to me last time.. But i think i juz lost it T_T haiz, careless.. luckily gt try to snap some photos with it =p

My mid sem break^^

Just a week holidays but full of new experience..some happy some sad one.. First,i got my hTc incredible s at very cheap price o...only 599 but with a digi smart plan 2 year contract but I still think it's very worth cause only 12 people in sarawak got the deal o.. We start line up for it from 4.30 am till 9 am eh..haha quite a special experience for me..=D whole week keep trying new apps haha (including this blog, using swype now haha)

other than that,I'm working to earn some extra pocket money..do traffic count o..at first,counting cars n all is still okay but write down the license plate is not an easy job, especially for motorcycle..my eyes already so blur n can't really concentrate after awhile..@@ but it's new for me too hehe..

then some unlucky things happened in this holiday...my nike slipper bye bye liao..it broke when I jump down to cross over a drain. I guess I dint treat it good enough == then my new singlet n jacket treat me bad too..but it's my own fault la..i got 3 new clothes n too happy just throw them in to the washing machine cause wanna get to wear after tat.but one of them is black color n GG....the other two is pink and grey 1..they kena kiss by the black 1 n leave some black "strawberry" on top...I Haven't even wear one time YET.. Haiz.this is me, careless n clumsy...T_T

Oh ya, forgot to talk about permai trip..so fun n so relax..everything was nice..hehe..i just love beach so much even thought I'm scare to go into deep sea but I still hope next time my honeymoon can go somewhere with some nice beaches wow super romantic haha our have my wedding straight on the beach la..haha.just a random thought la haha..

Thursday we went to carvery for meat buffet.. Quite nice just not used to the service cause about diff from normal buffet haha.. Cause u have to just sit back n wait for them to serve you the meat..the food not bad..hehe...

With all this experiences,i totally forgot about my studies n my main purpose to stay in kuching is to study... =.=||| luckily me n mel finish our em 2 dy n start to do my control lab report dy..so my weekend can't have fun dy..jia you jin..

Exhausted..

Wow,so so long din update my blog dy..Semester duration has been shorten to 12 weeks instead of 14 weeks make my life miserable. Everythg have to rush rush rush ! No more time for entertainment T_T So far, my oni entertainments are play Bejeweled 3, watch The Vampire Diaries and facebook-ing(oni if the internet is available).

I wanna go swimming lahh. I enjoy swimming even though i really really scare if the pool is too deep especially the section for ppl to dive. Haha. But it makes me swim evan harder when pass through that section coz i scare i will drown. =p I wan to keep continue swimming to make myself healthier coz im totally not a healthy person. Sleep late, wake up late, eat a lot, no exercise.. Wat a sad n lousy life im having right now. @_@

Looking forward for the mid-sem break n get to go to BEACH !! WOOHOO !! Waiting waiting..(tan, my bikini plan can juz throw away dy, impossible to achieve *_* ) Next week still gt 2 tests but after tat can relax relax then start my miserable uni life again .. =D

P/s: Because of lack of time to take k of my skin n face, i become so ugly now.. Darker skin, not-so-smooth face n some pimples on my face n back T_T hope after this week can start to take k of my body again then become prettier a little bit =D

Back to uni life

How long I away from my blog means how long were my holidays... =p finally back in kch n finally my uni life back on track.. 1st week full of entertainment like movies, shopping n all bt gonna start concentrate on studies dy.. This sem i wanna make a big change in my studies, i wanna reli try my best to get wat i can get... 3 n a half years of slacking is reli reli enough dy.. I left 1 n a half year time to make changes in my studies n im not going to let my parents down..So, i wil reli jia you..Pls support me n pray for me o~~ So tat i gt motivation for it =)

I have many new dreams n targets this year.. Im going to work for all of them.. I know some i cnt achieve yet cause of $$ bt i wil definitely continue work for it.. Hope i reli can lahh.. ^^

Oh ya, i wanna keep fit !! tat's 1 of my targets too =p Exercise more , eat less XD

K lah, juz wanna write sumtin to motivate myself.. haha..going to continue on my notes.. jia you evry1 ya..Take k all especially my outstation bro n sis n also my family. God bless all =)