人生目标

有时候在想， 我的人生目标是什么？

觉得自己应该上大学，现在还有一年即将毕业了，然后呢？

觉得自己应该恋爱，现在有个稳定的男友， 然后呢？

觉得自己应该长大了，可是我又做了什么呢？

前途茫茫，接下来是什么呢？

没有答案，没有预测，只有走一步，算一步。

22 岁的我，并不是几年前我想像中的那个自己。

没有那么的美好，没有那么的幸福，没有那么的单纯，也没有那么的快乐。

但是，生活还是要继续勇敢地走下去。

求神带领，也求神怜悯，因为我好像也不是自己想像中的那么爱你。对不起。我会学习回到你的身边的。

[也许你航行了一生也没有到达彼岸，

也许你攀登了一世也没能登上顶峰。

但是能触礁的不是勇士，

敢失败的未必不是英雄，

奋斗了就问心无愧，

奋斗了就是成功的人生。 ] (quote from internet =) )

Moody day

Today, just a random day, but is a moody day as well.

Tan is still sick and absent for class. I'm not going as well. Not becoz he is not thr. Is becoz two of us in a group n the tutorial class is discussion between your group so no point for me to go to class lor.

Doing nothing since I'm woke up except washed some dishes, cooked vege for lunch, facebook-ing, listening to music, play some games.. tat's all.. not a productive day. my assignment not even 50% done n yet I'm wasting time here.. T_T what a "nice" day ~

Later, i may bake cheese cake with Mel. She wanna bake one for her bf for his birthday n i just join her for fun haha hope everythg will be better later...

[ Like to 胡思乱想 lately, what a bad habit i had all the time ]

[ Like to think negatively, that's even worse]

[ Like to escape from problems, another one ==|||]

14 days of diet

Tat day, tan n i went shopping for groceries and we decided to start our diet for 14 days based on the Nestle diet program.. T_T

Our daily meal will be :

Breakfast - Whole grain cereal with milk (sometime with fruits or orange juice or boiled eggs)

Lunch - Normal Meal (Luckily, i want rice, meat n bla bla bla XD)

Dinner - Whole grain cereal with milk ( Again !!! @@)

Besides, we must have regular exercises (about 3 days or more per week)

Today is day 2 and everything is still fine, we ate as it stated and we went for squash n carried some light weights =D

12 days more, Jia you.. n hope that after these 2 weeks n u all can realize i become slimmer ~ haha ^^

自卑感

昨天，和朋友聊到自卑感，有一些感触。

我是家里最小的，从小，我都是躲在父母、哥哥姐姐们的后面，不需要担心任何事，不需要应付任何交际。只要静静的跟在背后，笑笑的打招呼就可以了。

稍微长大了，我的前男友和现任男友都是能言善辩的，对外的沟通也不需要我去烦恼，还是一样，笑笑的打招呼就好了。

有时候，当然也会感觉到自卑，觉得自己
●不够漂亮
●不够聪明
●不够勇敢
●身材不够好
●不够有钱
●不够强壮
●没有任何专长
●不够高

但是，还是要感谢上帝，祂赐给我身边的人都能保护我，也让我虽然不出色，却不是最糟糕的那个。我，就是最平凡的那个。而我，蛮喜欢这样的自己。^^

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Winter Sem

After all the waiting, worrying n hoping, I end up here, in Kch, taking winter semester. Means I haven't get my industrial placement yet n hope to finish it end of this year.. Pls pray for me, ppl.. Thanks =)

But, this winter sem is not going to be easy. 1 subject in 6 weeks, sounds simple but with 3 assignments n a final exam paper. The assignments are hard. First week, we got our assignment 1 dy n need to pass up next week T_T

Plus, I start to go gym dy.. Running plus lifting some light weight n hope to get nice body figure after this winter sem.. hahaha.. jia you jia you.. Tan is my personal trainer n he is so STRICT ! force me go gym everyday n cant rest when tired n keep complaint about my stamina n bla bla bla >_<

Swimming become our weekly activity too. Tan, Mel, Calvin, Rosemary n I, sometimes with tze swee or meow are having fun while swimming ~ Diving for the first time in my life.. from the lowest stand but im still so scared.. i was shaking while up there but still jumped down while prayed in the heart: "God,pls bless me ~" hahaha but that was fun ~ ^^

Anyway, take k u all..especially my friends n family in Miri, miss you all n have fun there.. =)